Wow 😳

 So obviously I am a problem! For most of the people I'm around wether I'm holding down a job making money or just sitting around unemployed without income being a bum, I'm a burden and waste of space through third party eyes! I'm weird, selfish, and lack self control. I am the villain in 75% of the everyone individual story. What's even worse is I am the villain of my story, my worst enemy was always the guy looking back at me in the mirror. No one can ever be harder on me than I am on myself. Every mistake, every choice, every opportunity, I am the mastermind of my own misery and chaotic destruction. I know and believe this because I actually do self reflect almost daily! If you take an honest inventory of your choices and actions at the end of every day, a rock hard look at yourself from an objective standpoint, you realize most of these things. From bigger picture to smallest picture of your current situation and lifestyle, it's easy to see the mistakes and bad choices; but for some of us more impulsive individuals the concept of the future, even if it's next day future-wise, we are unable to predict and plan what tomorrow will bring based on decisions and choices at hand in that current moment. It is one of my own biggest downfalls and an intellectual hardship that I have never been able to concept. As smart as I am and as much as I learn I cannot seem to grasp that simple necessity of thought process that seems to come so easily to others. So I apologize, to myself mostly, but also to everyone around me who I have burdened and hurt because of this ignorance.